Normally I can drop into the zone and lose the world. My record for doing so is over 9 hours; completely focussed on a project, I didn’t look up from my monitor or notice the passage of time until someone bumped my chair. While this did result in sore legs, sore eyes, sore back, low blood sugars, and a very full bladder, I would gladly put up with these things again for my ability to focus.

But right now I am lacking that focus. I am missing my concentration. I am lost without my clarity of mind.

Incomplete lines of thought. Unknown quantities. Unmet desires. Ambiguous fragments. Uncertain conclusion.

And yet I would change it not.